Life of Jenny Mac

Welp, It's offically 2023. New beginnings start now; however before I delve into the year ahead, It's time to reflect on the last 12 months, which lets face it has had some very high ups and very low downs. The biggest shock to my system actually started in November 2021, when Rob left me. I've been handling the mortgage and all the bills by myself for over a year, whilst being a full time employee and having the majority of responsibility for co-parenting a toddler, as well as taking time off work to meet with Mediation and Solicitors which has been a mental and emotional drain on me. It's been a Sh*t year in that respect and there have been alot of tears, alot of questioning the rationality of my ex's logic, and as a result alot of anxiety and emotional breakdowns.  The long road of divorce and settlement is STILL ongoing, but I hope that this year I'll be able to deal with challenges in a calmer way, since I'm starting to get desensitized by it all. I...

After riding low from our trip to glasgow, Henry and I came home to a poorly kitty cat. They say that things happen for a reason, and something in the Universe was definately telling me I needed to pull the plug on this trip and go home.  I had asked a friend to pop in on Charlie and feed him some wet food, and the first sign that Charlie wasn't well was the fact that he was cowering in a corner under some furniture in the garage. The second sign was that Charlie was not eating or drinking, as evident by the uneaten wet food Liam had given him and was still there when we got home at 7ish that night. He even refused his favorite treats when I tried to entice him to eat something. He didn't meow, he didn't purr, and he just seemed to stay in one spot and lay down for hours on end. Something was definately not right with him.  I went through bedtime routine with Henry, then came back downstairs to tend to Charlie. He was nothing like the kitty cat I left on Sunday night when H...

Preface: Before taking Henry on a long haul flight, I thought it would be good to take a short little hopper plane to Scotland so he could experience going on an airplace, and also, to test myself and what my anxiety will and will not be able to handle on my own.  Spoiler Alert--It didn't go well for me. We got on the plane and I immediately started journaling in a little pink notebook I brought with me because I was so overwhelemed and needed to get my thoughts out. The flight however was super short, so I didn't actually make it through writting all my thoughts down before we had to disembark.  Below is what I ended up writting in that journal, through shakey hands and crying... "October 23rd, 2022   Henry's First Flight We'll we're here. We made it on board...barely. Henry is fine, he's sat watching the Incredibles on my phone--thank you mom for Disney+ and the ability to download whole films to a device! I thought I had myself handled. Got to the airpor...

Ive been reading a very insightful book recently called "Why Does He Do That?" by Lundy Bancroft. It has shocked me how much my experience relates to what is in this book and I'd like to share some excerpts.  There were things in this book that absolutely shook me, took me by surprise and made me realize ive been in an abusive relationship. Some other things in this book seemed VERY firmiliar, making me say "yes, i knew this was not on" and i feel vindicated in my thinking after being gaslit for so long.  It took me a while to finish this book because i kept getting angry or anxious reliving my own experiences through its pages. But i do really recommend it to anyone who think they might have an abusive man (in any respect) in their life. This book covers the different archetypes of abusive men and it covers abuse in regards to physical, emotional, financial, psychological, sexual....It goes through the way abusive men think, how they work in relationships, how ...

Jenny has had a makeover....new blog. New reclaiming of name/identity. New look! New haircut even! So.... ALLOW ME TO Re-INTRODUCE MYSELF:  I'm Jenny, currently 32 years old and mother to a wonderful little human being. I grew up in California, but was Naturalised as a British Citizen just this year, although ive been living here since 2011. I've spent the last decade in an abusive relationship and im proud to say that a finalised divorce is on the horizon.  Most of 'old Jenny's' hobbies are the same (Disney, dancing, films, cats, cuddles, fantasy, ren faire, sci-fi, Halloween, dressing up, Pirates, crafting, Nanowrimo, recreational writing, etc)....  I've been building on my interests and rediscovering the things I love, but i have surpressed and kept away from for so long.  I am a practicing Witch.  I believe in nature as the divine.  I believe in my own intuition to guide me. I love the smell of Sage. I like burning candles and incense.  I believe c...

Welcome all,  Here's a brief explaination of why there is a new blog for Life of Jenny Mac:  Even though divorce is still an ongoing process, I have decided to reclaim my identity and migrate my online presence back to my maiden name, McClellan. Part of doing so has meant that my email, google account and everything attached to it (including my old blog), have gone dorment because there is no way to merge google accounts (that I know of).  So new google email address -->  new google acount -->  new blog.  I will still be keeping the old google account in case I need to migrate something I've forgotten over. My old blog in all it's untouched glory can still be found here , but I will be carrying on with future blogs from this new version2. It's been 281 days since Rob moved out of the house and I'm still finding my way back to myself. I'm rediscovering who I am, coming to terms with what I've gone through and hopefully moving forward to provide a happi...