Jabby Jabby, Stabby Stabby
2011 I've had a very long complicated history with my weight. Genetics have provided me with a more bulky build and a very slow metabolism. Like most individuals, I peaked when I was young. My lowest weight & healthiest figure was when I was between 19-21 and living in sunny California. I even tried losing weight for my wedding, as brides do, and I was told by my seamstress to stop, because my dress would be too big--and it was corseted and could adjust. I have no idea what weight I was then, at 21 years old, but I remember feeling my best and slimmest in those last few years in California. Ever since then, I've been chasing an unrealistic expectation that I'd 'get back' to that girl physically. 2012 But I'm not a teenager anymore. And with age, my physical appearance has gotten worse in terms of health. I've suffered from Seasonal Depression Disorder, when the winter months got darker, and I used food as a coping mechanism for depression. I've dea...